Frozen Sun

You’d be surprised how often I choose to blog here on Friendster, and that’s definitely not very often..

Only when I’m SO bored.

But that’s beside the point.

Only two days of school have passed and already, it’s proved to have its pros and cons. You could say that being a Junior DOES give you a bit of contemplation, especially with the FRESHMAN this year (no offense to the Pink Batch intended). It’s really hard to say exactly how it would seem fit to judge them, but I really am getting a bit (ardently at that) irritated with their behavior. It’s not a very assuring thing to have them around and go about their business, bump into you without saying so much as a sorry.

VERY NICE..

Forever engrossed in the vast expanse,

That which is a million stars shine down upon us.

Lying under this warm sight,

a little boy came upon the Earth.

And it was in that moment,

that the world stayed still.

Forever lost under this sky,

the years passed, its face changing constantly.

Until the time we come to see,

these same bright stars that survived time and space.

The boy grew up, and his life was claimed,

by the God whose will was then fulfilled.

Today, our kind looks up at these stars,

Pondering merely on their intricate designs.

But what makes the stars so perfect to gaze upon?

To admire and sink deeper in meaning?

Here we are, just another night,

of star gazing to our heart’s delight.

This poem.. is my own composition. Like all others, they speak only of reflection.

From the title, I guess you should know what I mean by this entry. I’m going to be talking about Samurai 7, my newest anime find. Just after watching one episode of it oh so long ago, I was so impressed it became my favorite anime, knocking Saiyuki right off its long stay at number 1.

Judging from my pictures, you’d know that Kyuzo’s my favorite among the bunch. Case closed. Who can compete? But then again, my taste in good looking hotties in the anime world are pretty common or weird, so to speak. You decide. Sanzo from Saiyuki, Sakai from Hungry Heart, Genzo from Captain Tsubasa, Lion from Twin Spica, Ban from Get Backers, Touya from Cardcaptor Sakura, Suoh from Clamp School, etc.

ANYWAY, I highly recommend you watch this, unless you’re uneasy seeing bloodshed. Unfortunately, a few people die (and I don’t think you want to know it from me). Just watch it on Animax if ever it’s still on. Right now, you can watch it (in the Philippines) M-F at 6.30p, replay at 3.30am the following morning. I would also suggest watching on Sun, at 11pm, but it’s already the last episode tomorrow. Just look out for it, okay?

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The usual weekend and a time of great back pain and satisfaction. I say back pain because sitting in front of the computer for 3 hours trying to concentrate on putting musical notes in the right place on the staff which is not even there when you move on in the piece can be frustrating.

Yes, we have a program of Noteworthy Composer in one of our computers and I thought of trying to listen to our Songfest contest piece right by putting it there. Of course, creating a piece like this needs time, patience and concentration. And believe, that sure can take a lot out from you. XD

After hearing it, it was marvelous. The piano staffs in particular were difficult to input, with it being chords and all. But in a sense, it was worth it. Dedication like that cannot be seen anywhere else if my all was not put into doing it. I guess it’s time to set that to schoolwork. :p But don’t worry, because you will be seeing more of these kinds of posts later on.

So, all we need now are more time for practice and more Music classes, because the piece is awesome!!!

Yes, yes. We all know my addiction to Jars of Clay (if you read my profile in detail and not just browse the pictures. XD). And now, I have their latest album entitled ‘Redemption Songs’. I was so frustrated to choose just 1, but I’m planning to ask for the other albums as gifts in the future (i.e. for bday/xmas). XD

Okay, that’s all I wanted to say. Any comments on the previous posts are most appreciated.

Mad for reasons I can’t understand, my friend is once again my foe. Keeping her distance, anger burns deeply. How can I retain a friendship that is full of the emptiness I feel inside? How can I retain the friendship that we shared that was filled by both our true intentions and feelings of joy and happiness?

A best friend is one thing in the world that is most dear to me. In good times or in bad, that friend is always there to comfort you, guide you and support you in whatever you do. A best friend is also hard to find, because it takes time for the bond to strengthen and deepen with each passing day you are together.

Fortune smiled upon me when I found mine. Time and time again, I’ve mentioned that this was a match made in heaven, a true soulmate. It is wondrous to see that the letters we have previously sent to each other are still kept with us long after it has been forgotten.

Only now, I don’t know how much more of this pain I can take. Of feigning myself to others and not revealing who I truly am. I wish with all my heart and soul that Dai and I will not cease being friends through our ceaseless quarrels. I do not want to feel this emptiness that she had always seemed to fill when she was around.

Sometimes, she may have been clumsy and totally annoying, but that’s the spontaniety that I have always dreamed of being around. I wanted to help her time and time again when she needed it. I have helped her through the idea of suicide and tried endlessly to convince her of who I really am to her. I want to show her that I truly care for her, even if it isn’t in the ways that we can benefit from it. I cannot seem to express how I truly feel through my speech but only through my writing can I impress and confuse her with such deep but somehow mind-changing play of words.

All in all, I am blessed to have her. I want the whole world to know that Dai is the truest friend that I’ll ever have until the end of time. No one can ever compare to her, no matter how close I seem to be with others. She and I share a relationship more complicated than you can ever hope to imagine.

‘In your picture book I’m trying hard to see, turning endless pages of this tragedy. Sculpting every move, you compose a symphony. You plead to everyone, see the art in me.’ - Art in Me, Jars of Clay

Two days ago, I was faced with a very disturbing problem. Mind you, it wasn’t the Boy-Girl Talk we had earlier during the day. That was fun and entertaining!

This problem involved two of my friends, Cigs and Irene. The only reason Irene is part of this is because she’s the one with the 3-way connection.. Anywho, Cigs was troubling herself with her friend’s problem at school. Trying to forget that certain incident, she felt the best way to do so is to - yes - inflict pain on herself by slashing her wrist. Blood kept on pouring and it’s lucky she’s still alive.

So, I asked her why she did such a thing. She told me. And then Irene was cheering me on. (I was famous for giving ’sermons’ to them) Eventually, I started my piece. I told her that the best way to solve this problem was to approach her family. Be open with them and tell them everything - why she did it and for what reason that drove her to do it. (WOW. o.O; I actually put what I heard during the talk to use! Interesting..)

Debate began among us. She was saying how happy they were there. Her mom, uncle and his wife (?) and whoever else was at their house at the time all came home early. It was a rare occasion and she didn’t want to ruin that. I was saying that what mattered more was her well-being. A rare occasion like that could occur again. What’s important is that they are aware of your life being on the line. She said she was terrified of what they would say. I told her that her family loves her, no matter what. Eventually, they would understand why you did it. That’s what families are for. Friends are there for you to support you.

Again, she kept denying this fact. I kept driving her to the decision. Even Irene agreed with me. She needed to tell her family. Then she said, "Wouldn’t it be weird to walk up to them with a handkerchief over my wrist covered with blood?" I said, "As long as you explain everything to them, it’ll be fine. Don’t hold anything back and let everything out. Don’t let them contradict you or interrupt until your done. Do it in a polite way. Like ‘Before you say anything, please let me explain. And please don’t interrupt me until I’m done.’"

I persuaded her into doing it. Eventually, she agreed to do it and we all put down the phone. A few hours later, they called me up again and I was relieved to hear her voice. I asked how it went and she was like, "They gave me my birthday present early." It obviously meant that they had taken it well and were proud that she told them. I thanked her for talking to us about it, but in truth, she thanked me for what I said.

It’s another experience with persuasion that I succeeded in doing so. Advice, or a sermon it may be, all that matters is that everyone’s happy.

Haha. Exams are tomorrow, and here I am sitting in front of the computer. Typical me. Ah well. I study, and I’m hoping to do my best and get all the questions I can answer correctly under the limited time. Just hope that my best would be enough Haha XD Anywho, here’s luck to me!

It’s friday, and exam week for the 1st quarter are approaching. Lots to memorize and understand, lots to prepare for. As tiring as it sounds, I’m looking forward to it. It’s always a good feeling when exams are up and you’re there in your chair answering everything you’ve reviewed confidently or trying to remember.

I don’t know. Maybe that’s just me. But I try my best and hopefully, I’ll do much better this school year and get an honor and walk up that stage! Haha. At least that’s one goal I’m aiming for. 4 days to go…